...and she clicked her heels.

“Believe in the stars and the signs again.”

Gonna get inked… Soon.

Can’t sleep.

Memories… Bad memories.

Okay lang. Ganun talaga eh. It’s been almost a year.

I made a choice. A smart choice to be exact. I spewed out the words, “No, I’ve had enough. You didn’t treat me right”.

I just still can’t quite figure out some things. Well, I guess that they’ll remain a mystery for now.

I’ve been thinking this past few weeks why my guards are up. First off, because I’ve been through hell and back. I’ve been through so much (emotional) rollercoaster ride, got sick and puked over and over again. It was such a thrill. Despite feeling woozy, I came back for it again and again. I always wanted to be in the front-seat coz it gives you that this-is-the-best-time-of-my-life feeling while you’re upside down. So, I waited in line to buy tickets just to get that special seat. I gave way to those behind me. I let them thru and waited in line. I watched the other people feel the thrill. They were all having fun riding the rollercoaster. They were screaming and laughing as I watched them from below.”You can’t rush good things”, I said to myself. Let them have their fun. You might be smothering him. And that’s what I did.

For almost 2 years, I always thought I had the front-seat… I thought I had that special place. Heh… Then I noticed that some other girl was seating beside me… Also enjoying the ride. She seemed ecstatic. And she had a ride-all-you-can-for-the-rest-of-your-life ticket. While I had to wait in line to buy one. Bummer, eh?

I don’t have everything in the world to buy that ticket. I don’t have everything to wait in line. People get tired. I get tired.

I’ve had too much of that “ride”. I got so sick that I started throwing up… But he couldn’t save me. He couldn’t hold my hair up while I was puking. He couldn’t hand me my tissue. He just wasn’t at my side when I was so sick of everything. He was up there. He was having fun with the other girl.

…Or maybe I was the other girl all those time and I just did not notice it until the end.

Good thing my friends saw me when I was so smashed at the corner. They picked me up and asked me if I wanted to try out something calmer and sick-free ride. So, we did.

I’ve ran out of money to buy tickets to test-ride the new additions of the Amusement Park. Well, I do have some savings to check out this one ride. But he seems all too fragile for me. And I’m not sure if I could bet my safety on him. I think he lost one screw or something. And I’m not sure if it’s open to public already. @_@

He confuses me. I like him but he confuses me…  I already told the guy who made that interesting ride that I like what he did. That there’s something special about it… But I guess he didn’t hear me. All he could say was that it was “typical”. I wanted to disagree, but I just kept mum.

Oh well.

Life’s dull. Really dull… but it’s still good. I’m just having a feeling that I’m starting to get uninterested with all these sitting and watching.

I miss the fireworks. I miss the thrill. The Magic.

Oh well.

…buti na lang, may nagpapawala ng pagod ko every time pag uwi.

Cute nila ‘no? :D Kakagigil!!! ^____________^

PROJECT 365: 4th photo/s

PROJECT 365: 4th photo

One of my (childhood) hero. *_*

I love you! *_*

PROJECT 365:  3rd photo

I need my dose of medicine and they are my medicine. :(

Work’s taking up my time… Which I really don’t mind at all honestly. I like where I’m working. But I sometimes feel like I’m losing myself. I’m losing that something that I need to keep me insane. Yes, INSANE. :)

When I am in the state of insanity, I feel like I’m in some kind of other dimension where any thing is possible. Where I can do any single thing. I feel invincible. But lately, I am feeling sane. And I do not like it… Not one bit.

Something’s missing. Must look for it. And fast!